Season 2 Intro: What's New, The Now Experiment & My Journey to Freedom

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Hello everyone and welcome to season two of the Abundantly Curious Podcast.

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I'm your host, Jerry.

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So in season one, I had such a blast creating something that

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was a pure passion project.

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It was one of the first creative acts I took just as a labor of love because I am

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so genuinely lit up and fascinated by the exploration of the intersection of science

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and spirituality and self-help and this whole world that just changed my entire

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life, that I wanted to share it with other people and explore all of these ideas

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and get really curious about what exists in life and what the possibilities are.

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And that's really our mission here at Abundantly Curious, is to expand

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people into possibility, to liberate you from the boxes, the mental boxes, the

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emotional boxes, the belief boxes that keep you living a life that is smaller

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than your potential, that smaller than the holistic nature of who you are.

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And so I'm very happy to be here recording this intro for the second season

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because there are some new things in the second season that we're introducing.

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And note that at the time of this recording right now, I have not recorded

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all of the episodes for this season.

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So we're really in this journey together.

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I think one of the primary goals and just ways that I am showing up in this

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is to not put myself as the producer, as the creator into any sort of boxes.

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So in season one, you'll notice there were a lot of guest experts joining and

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it was interview style and, um, there was, uh, an absolute structure to things

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that was beautiful and that worked.

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There were also some solo episodes and I, I will probably still have some

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guest experts this season, but you're gonna notice, , that I'm really gonna

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show up however I want, in service to our mission of expanding people into

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possibility, that means there's gonna be solo episodes where I'm sharing

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some of my personal experimentations.

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I think people are really curious about what it means to walk a path

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in between two worlds, and that's how I feel and that is what I've heard

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so many others come to me about.

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I feel like I have one foot in this soulful world where I am

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so expanded into possibility.

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I have.

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Done so much growth.

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Um, I have this wild, almost voracious appetite for information

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and experiences that connect me and in enliven me even deeper into the world.

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And there's this beautiful trust there that I'm not engaging as

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just this alone individual in life.

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That I am in fact a creator of my life, , that is working in tandem

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with a force higher than myself.

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It's a soulful element of artistic expression and love

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and emotion and aliveness.

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And then there's this other world.

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I feel like my right foot is in this rational space, the space that I spent

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the first 30 years of my life in.

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I'm 34 now, so I mean, I'm gonna say all the way up until now, it's

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probably still the dominant aspect of my nature where it's this very

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energetically masculine driven, climb the ladder of life, do the things.

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If you want to get the specific result you're looking for,

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they're very clear path there.

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And you do one step at a time in that specific way, and you suck it

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up and you just do it where there's very little space for emotion.

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And while there is absolutely a, a beauty to it, uh, there's a benefit to structure,

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there's a benefit sometimes to, , a certain level of,

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, strategy and pathway building.

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It can feel whenever it's overused, quite constraining and containing.

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It feels like I've been living in a box for quite some time, and this is one of

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my experiments here that I'm gonna be speaking to and share and information

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about is what does it mean to walk the path between these two worlds, the

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soulful world and the rational world, the spiritual world and the practical world.

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The mind and the matter, there's just a lot of people who are trying to figure

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out how to balance these two things.

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So some of the episodes are gonna be dedicated to that.

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I'm also in deep experimentation around living as a creator,

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not as a responder to life.

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So this is a way of living that is inside out, not outside in.

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And what does that mean?

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That means that I intend to live my life from a place of really using

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my inner compass, my inner knowing.

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I wanna follow what lights me up.

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I wanna follow what I desire and need and want, and I wanna be able to

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listen to myself, to my body, um, to my intuition, to all these different

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parts of me that exist and make sure that they're all taken care of, that

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I'm not leaving any of them behind, that I'm not sacrificing any part of myself.

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In order to show up in a way that I am expected to, or that I should,

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or that I think I have to in order to be witnessed in a specific way or

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create a specific outcome that I want.

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, it really is this giant experiment, which some of you may know that I

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launched a company a few months back called the Now Experiment, which is

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all about presence based exploration and coaching and mentorship, where it's

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really about being here right now and breaking free of this constant pull

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into the past or the future that removes you from the only moment that is real.

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This moment right here, right now is the only time when you can be or do anything.

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And we tend to think that our access to aliveness, our access to the way

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that we wanna feel, or the experience of life that we want to have exists

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at some point in the future once we've created a certain thing.

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And that's absolutely not true.

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Our access to aliveness is only ever here and now, and we can give ourself the gift

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of choosing to be and do in a certain way right now that gives us access to more

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aliveness, and that also generates the possibility of the future that we want to.

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So a big part of that for me is in leaving the boxes behind ignoring

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the rules that don't work for me.

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I was in a recent workshop with Jaya John, who is a artist and creator and such a

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wise human, and he said, leap from the rules into a higher atmosphere of freedom.

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Leap from the rules into a higher atmosphere of freedom.

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Rules, structure.

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Um, systems, these things are so beneficial and helpful, especially

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as the beginner cuz they help you create new patterns and habits and

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new landscapes for possibility, whether it's in your health or your

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business or relationships or X, y, z.

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They create a structure that is very helpful as you're starting to bloom,

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as you're starting to, to sprout.

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But then, What I get from this quote and what I feel so often is that

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there's a moment where maybe part of that structure, part of those

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rules gets to shed away so that your unique way can bloom and blossom.

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So how can we use the rules in a way that frees us and how can we create our

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own rules in life such that we are not contained into any box, that we're not

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leaving any part of ourselves behind that we're not sacrificing our level of

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aliveness in order to be accepted and successful and cared for, and frankly,

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financially secure and stable too.

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So there will be a lot of solo episodes where I'm sharing my personal

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journey and insight on this path.

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Uh, and I'll also be inviting friends and colleagues and cool

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people on to have different conversations around these things.

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And there will also be some guest experts as well.

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So I am really, really excited to bring this new version of Abundantly Curious

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to you where we're ultimately aiming to expand you into possibility and deepen

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you into aliveness, bringing more presence to your life, and creating more of the

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experience of what you want out of it.

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I'm really happy to have you here and I invite you to sign up for my

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newsletter as well if you're not already the Now Experiment newsletter

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on my website, the now experiment.com.

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So at this point, for those of you who are already pretty familiar with me,

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uh, I wanna let you know I'm about to dive into my story and that will be

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the end of this particular episode.

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So if you feel like you already have a deep understanding of my path,

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then feel free to keep on going.

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So I want to, uh, give some background for those who are just now listening on what

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my experience of life has been to date.

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So I grew up in a very rural part of North Carolina and went to a

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very, very small series of schools.

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Um, and it was quite a simple low key.

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Blue collar life, and I always had this desire for more.

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And I think that there's something beautiful in that desire because

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desire is the only reason why anything gets done right.

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If we did not want for yearn, for desire things, um, there might not be any reason

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to actually get up and take action.

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I.

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So I say that with love and care towards my young self who had so much yearning

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for something different because she really was not loving her situation where she

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was in this, in this place that she was in for multiple reasons and she just

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wanted something better for herself.

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And, um, what I wish that I could go back in time and tell her is to remind

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her of how much there is to be grateful for in those moments, and to give her

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access to tools and things that she can do that, , help her feel more alive without

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needing some sort of external experience to happen in order to get her there.

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So that's a little reparenting inner child moment right there.

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That's what I would tell young Jerry.

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But anyway, so I basically jumped onto the ladder of life that I call it really

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early on with a lot of zeal and with a very clear vision and mission and purpose.

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I wanted to get out, I wanted to be successful.

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I wanted to leave, um, this place that had been kind of containing

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and, and boxing in for me.

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I wanted to leave it behind and I wanted to go out there and just explore and

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adventure, , and get out in the world.

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So I was very, very academically inclined.

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I was at the very top of all of my classes.

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I think I had a 99 in every class

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it was so annoying.

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I remember.

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Um, well, it wasn't annoying to me, but I say it was so annoying cuz I got

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feedback that it was annoying . That, , whenever they had the award ceremony,

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I won almost every single award.

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So it was just me getting up and down for highest grade point

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average and all of this stuff.

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, and it, it was just absolutely so deeply rooted in my identity, like so

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wildly rooted in my identity to be, , academically successful and not just

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successful, but at the very, very top.

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, it was what became expected of me in a way.

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And I am still working on deconditioning, that aspect of self that feels like

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in order to be me or in order to be loved or the valuable that I must.

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Be at the very, very top.

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Um, so with that sort of mindset, I ended up in high school my

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sophomore year applying to this science and mathematics school.

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It's kind of like a magnet school for science and math,

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education, higher tier education.

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It's really meant to attract who were in my position, who were in schools

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that were much, much smaller, didn't have access to as much resources

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where kids weren't being challenged or, , really given the education that

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could help them reach , their potential.

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So I applied and got in and was so wildly excited because getting in meant that I

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got to go live on this campus that was almost like a college campus in Durham,

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North Carolina for two years in a dorm room and get completely free, , room

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and board there, free dining free.

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Education from doctorate level.

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Really educated people and it also meant an entirely new environment

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with new people and being in like a much bigger town and just access

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to so many more experiences.

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I was super excited to do this, and I went and I got there and oh my God,

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it was like, for a little bit, it was amazing, but then it started to almost

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feel like a slap in the face because whenever my identity was so tied

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up in being at the top and you get.

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Access to the sea of other people that are really, really

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smart and really, really driven.

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Suddenly I was average in that pool.

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Right?

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Which was still pretty good considering.

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But wow, like I was no longer anywhere near the top.

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And I started to notice how much of my motivation to act was motivated

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by external validation and the perception of how I was doing versus

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how I felt about how I was doing and how smart it was that I was perceived

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as, versus how much I was learning.

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And that, that's a a point I wanna bring up, like nowhere in my education

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was anybody talking about the joy of learning or the joy of curiosity

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or exploring something or writing something or doing something because

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you wanted to, I don't remember a single message from a single teacher.

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I don't remember anything like that in my entire.

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, childhood, it was all about you do this thing so that you can achieve,

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so that you can be validated into the next level so that you can keep going.

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And so you can get to that place eventually.

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Where you'll be a valuable person who's successful and you'll

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have access to a lot of money.

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That's kind of the latter of life that I'm talking about.

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It is that message that normalized, uh, capitalistic, patriarchal, uh,

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timeline that has created great order in our, in our highly populated system.

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Yes, of course.

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Um, that has worked very, very well for many people, which has created a

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lot of abundance for a lot of people, provided access to a lot of safety and

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stability and, and fundamental resources.

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So not saying that it's all bad, but there is so much containment in it

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and there's so little exploration.

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So whenever I was at that school, I became deeply depressed.

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Because my, I was having an identity crisis at 15 with no resources living

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away from my family with all these kids in a sea of just teenage angst.

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But, uh, there I really developed a, a, a stronger sense of resilience I guess.

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I went to a really, really dark place there.

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A part of being in this school was that I would get free tuition

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to any of the university systems schools, which was amazing.

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Cause my family did not have enough money to afford college.

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Really, for me.

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So I got a full ride, went to UNC Chapel Hill, and I played

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the rules and I chose the major.

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I was originally a business major cuz I had watched so much sex in the city

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that I wanted to be in marketing and pr.

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Uh, and I actually dropped out of being a business major because there was a

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Friday morning accounting class that was a requirement for the major that

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I could not get to because Thursday nights were the party nights and it

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was a 45 minute commute from my dorm to the 8:00 AM classroom on Fridays.

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So when you think about the random stuff in life that can

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have a momentous butterfly effect, that's definitely one of them.

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So I ended up choosing journalism and public relations as my major

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I noticed this rebellion in myself while I was there, I had been contained for

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so long on this path, and now I was in this free space and I just wanted

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to learn the things I wanted to learn.

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And yet the majors that I selected had such a strict.

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Curriculum of what kind of classes I had to take that I couldn't take a photography

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class cuz they were always filled up and they were reserved for the art majors.

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I couldn't take a music class, I couldn't take the writing

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classes that I wanted to take.

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There was still so little options at this place that we were meant to be free.

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So I kept climbing the ladder and I got out there and I found the entry level job.

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A year later I moved to Boston for a relationship and I just

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kept climbing that ladder.

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You know, I had the coordinator role, the, , account executive role, the manager

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role, the senior manager, the director, and then the head of marketing role.

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By the time I was 28 years old and this career was built in marketing.

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So all this time, and I got to the top of that ladder and I was just like,

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Jesus, . That fulfillment that I've been seeking, all of the ways that I've ignored

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so many parts of myself, I didn't even know at the time what those parts were.

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To get to this place where things are supposed to feel different

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and they didn't feel different.

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So I went on a big journey.

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I kind of like left, went on this, uh, solo backpacking trip where I ended

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up meeting up with a friend on one of her, , retreats that she was planning.

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And I awakened to this entirely different way of being and doing.

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I'll never forget, there was a Oracle deck at one of the

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places we were staying in Bali.

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Which is a beautiful place, by the way.

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I highly recommend it.

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And I had no idea what an Oracle deck was at at that time, but I picked it up

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and I started playing around with it, and I, I kept pulling the same card.

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I must have pulled from this deck eight or nine, maybe 10 times,

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and almost every single time the transformation card would come up.

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There are 56 cards in this deck.

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The statistical likelihood of me pulling completely randomized,

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purely shuffled, whenever I'm pulling one card, the transformation card

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is so low and it kept happening.

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And that is maybe one of the first moments when I started to get a sense

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for the spiritual synchronistic, beautiful, irrational nature of life.

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That transformation card was such a catalyst for me whenever I was there and I

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was surrounded by all these people living their lives in such a different way.

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And I kept getting this card and I kept feeling something in a

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really scary way, to be honest.

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Shifting in me.

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I knew that there was something else for me, and that was the

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beginning of my awakening.

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And I say scary because there's something that happens whenever you

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realize your power to change your life.

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There's a shadow side to it where you're also heartbroken about the fact that

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you didn't change it before, that this power has always resided within you.

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And that there is for some of the elements of your past,

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a, a level of responsibility.

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And to that part I'll offer grace because we don't do better until we know better.

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Right.

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Um, so Jerry was doing the best she could until she got to that

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place of understanding that something else was possible.

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But nevertheless, there was a deeply, , dark side to realizing

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that I had spent most of my life on a path that wasn't serving me.

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Like it was not lighting me up.

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And there were all these other possibilities that I just wasn't

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aware of, hadn't really opened myself up to or been exposed to.

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, And so with this initiation of sorts, I returned to my corporate job and I

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started on my own free time incorporating different modalities of personal

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growth and development on the physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual sides.

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My physical journey was, , unintentional because whenever I

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came back from this trip, I had a really scary medical experience.

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Traveling to Bali is a lot, it can take anywhere from, I think

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at minimum it'll take you 28 hours, and at the most, gosh, 48.

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Mine was somewhere between those two and it was a lot.

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And then I flew a lot for the holidays directly after I was in the air a ton.

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I had all of this energy moving through my body, , and all of these

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emotions after having an awakening to the possibilities in life.

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And I felt like one night whenever I got back.

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From one trip I felt like I was having a heart attack.

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My chest, it felt like a, like a giant weight was on it.

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And in retrospect, it could have been a panic attack, but it was more than that.

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My left arm started going numb, and I didn't know what to do, so I called

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my mom and I was like, I think I need to go to the emergency room.

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This has been happening for like four or five hours, and I'm trying to sleep and

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I can't, and it's really, really scary.

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And so I went and they couldn't find anything.

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But then this weird thing happened where my legs were feeling really

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full, almost like there was a clot in them, and I couldn't walk very well,

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and I kept having this very intense sensation of pressure on my chest.

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To this day, I have no freaking idea what it was, um, from either like a

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spiritual, energetic, or a physical scientific, , perspective, like no clue.

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But what I do know is that after spending a month and barely able to walk and not

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going into work as often, and having endless tests run by the medical community

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and constantly being told that it's in my head or that they don't know what it is or

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that I'll just have to like feel it out, that I started then to get more curious

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about the other things that were possible in the physical health and wellness realm.

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That's when I discovered acupuncture and started going every week

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for the next two or three years.

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And I gotta tell you, after the first two sessions, my symptoms

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were almost completely gone.

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I was put on this really, really healthy, , diet.

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I mean, you can't even call it diet.

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I was basically just eating like healthy food and, um, it,

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it changed everything for me.

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So I was pulling on this thread.

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I eventually gave up caffeine.

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I was vegan for a while, and then I decided that meat,

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um, was calling to me again.

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My body sort of needed it.

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, but being vegan for the while that I was, was such an excellent cleanse and

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detox for me, and I stopped drinking.

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That was such a big one for me.

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I have actually been alcohol free for almost three years now, and I would

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not go back at least in this moment.

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I feel that I would never say never, because one thing I hold a lot of space

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for is that I can change in any moment.

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, I can choose differently in any moment.

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And so I don't put myself in any box of saying, I am this, forever because

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the ways that I've transformed and changed internally and externally over

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the course of my lifetime have proven to me that there is such a state of

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impermanence with a lot of things.

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And even the things that we say will never be for us could possibly be one day.

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I released a lot of.

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My anxiety and mental rumination via the growth that I did.

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I went on a lot of women's retreats.

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I just, I was doing the work, man.

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Like every morning I had a morning ritual, morning practice.

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I was moving my body.

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I was getting a little bit closer to emotions.

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I was healing my mind , and I just got to a place where I realized that

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the work that I wanted to do that was actually creating a sense of more

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fulfillment and joy and peace in my life wasn't what was happening at work.

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It was what was happening whenever I wasn't there.

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And I realized that I wanted more time to be there with myself with these practices

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and these things that were helping me.

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So I left my corporate job.

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I put in my notice the day after my big fat bonus hit my bank account,

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and sure enough, uh, covid, I had just been a whisper that day and

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two weeks later it was full-blown.

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My last day in the office was the first day that they told everyone to

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stay home in Boston where I was based.

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And that kind of killed my, uh, dream of traveling during that time.

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But it was such a juicy time for me in terms of having all

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of my time and space to myself.

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No one was doing anything without me.

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There was no fomo.

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There was no events.

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I literally couldn't do anything but sit at home in my studio

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with my cat and just be.

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That worked out so incredibly well for my personal timeline.

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And I'm not saying like, oh, COVID was a good thing for me.

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I'm just saying that in terms of when it could have happened in my life,

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me leaving at that moment worked out really beautifully because I was able

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to initiate a really lengthy healing journey that I am still on three and

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a half years later to deprogram myself from the conditioning of being constantly

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productive in a very specific way and to catch up on years and years and

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years of rest and self-reflection and.

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Space to follow my curiosity.

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So okay, well I guess I'm gonna start a business cuz I've been just

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existing for two months now, living my best life and my apartment.

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Uh, so I'm gonna get curious about how I'll start generating income on my own.

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And then it just hit me, start with what you know, , what do I know?

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Well, I'm an expert in marketing, so become a marketing consultant,

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become a business coach.

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And that's what I did.

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I had an idea.

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A month later I launched the business.

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. In my first month, I had a great super responsive month, and in my second month

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in business, I had my first $10,000 month.

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And I have continued on that entrepreneurship journey

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for the past three years.

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Originally as a business coach, , I still do business coaching even though

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I don't advertise it as much, and eventually evolving into life coaching.

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I have clients who have been working with me for two and a half years who

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show up every week and we work towards what they wanna create in life, the

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experience of life that they wanna have.

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And I have to say like the fulfillment and joy of doing this work and

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witnessing clients create so much change, so much transformation.

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It has been absolutely beautiful to witness and that's why I, I got into

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this is I wanted to do work that helps free people that goes towards

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that north star of deepening into aliveness, which requires freedom and

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the ability to create the experience of life that you want to have.

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We spend so little time really giving thought to that.

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What is the experience of life that I want to have and how can I create that?

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This is taking me back to what I said earlier about living a life from the

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inside out instead of the outside in,

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instead of just responding to all of the things that are coming at me,

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, without a clear vision or intention,

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in this journey.

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Over the past three and a half years, I have experienced more

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growth and transformation than I have in an entire lifetime.

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It has been so, so wild.

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I would not trade it for anything.

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Entrepreneurship has a lot of pros and also some cons.

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, and I'm really grateful to have had this experience.

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And then about five months ago, go, I had this moment where I realized

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that I needed to remember some things.

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That's something that's really important.

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Just cuz you learn something once doesn't mean that that's it.

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It's programmed in and you're done.

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You have to keep practicing it.

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You have to keep remembering it.

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And I looked around at my life and I realized that I was in a

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relationship that wasn't fulfilling me.

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There was a lot of love there, a lot of good things, and it was also

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making the life that I wanted to have for myself more difficult to create.

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Flynn Skidmore.

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, a therapist on Instagram actually said that, and it was so meaningful

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to me, he said, whenever you're in a relationship with a lot of love, it

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can be really hard to ever leave it.

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But the question I have for you is this relationship making it more exciting and

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fun and easier to create the experience of life that I want, or harder and less fun.

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So I left a on and off four year relationship.

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I sold all my stuff.

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I put it into storage, and decided to do my second stint

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of being a full-time nomad.

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What does it mean?

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It means I don't really have a home.

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I don't pay rent anywhere.

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Uh, I have a home base in North Carolina with my family,

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and I travel out from there.

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I've just initiated this , and I spent a month in Costa Rica and I'm about

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to take off for a month in Austin.

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Who knows what will be there after that.

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It feels really, really good to be so comfortable in this unknown and to have

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all of the many lessons and experiences.

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So I am now a full-time nomad floating around traveling, and

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that'll be part of the stuff that I share with you here in season two.

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I also took this opportunity as this great reset and I really pulled back and

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I called all of my energy back to me.

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I decided to rebrand my business as the now experiment and to really

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dive even deeper into what does it mean to walk the path between these

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two worlds of soulful and rational.

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Left brain, right brain doing being, um, what does it mean to exist in a way

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that is nearly, completely generated from my internal compass, from my unique

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preferences, desires, wants, needs.

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What is the point of having these wants and needs and being a unique individual?

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What is the point of being alive, if not, to show up in life, in alignment

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with these unique desires and wants and needs, and to do your own unique path

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and to have your own unique experience.

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So that is what we are gonna be diving into in season two.

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I am so appreciative if you're still listening, that you stuck along with me on

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this journey and it just got a little bit of a sense for who this person is that is

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gonna be sharing with you at times, really incredibly vulnerably on this podcast.

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I am really excited to continue sharing with you.

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I want you to know that my door is always open for feedback,

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and also notes of resonance.

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So if something really speaks to you, please let me know and I can

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give thought to doing more of that.

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And I want you to know that even though the podcast world is sort of a one-way

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street in terms of communication, I don't think of it that way.

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I want you to feel free to reach out to me on Instagram or in the

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contact form on my website and let me know what is resonant for you.

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What is really working for you with this podcast?

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What questions do you have?

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What are you curious about?

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Let's keep it a two-way street in that regard.

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And if you sign up for my newsletter, the Now experiment@thenowexperiment.com,

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you can also always just feel free to reply to that email and, , let me

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know what you're thinking there too.

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Without further ado, I will send you off into the very first episode, even

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though this felt like a single episode of the Abundantly Curious Podcast.